~MoO MoO~: Happiness?

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Why must my happiness be associated with a ?

Spoke to my babe and dear a few days back. Was talking about happiness and me.

I've always wondered. Did God actually plan for happiness to be part of my life? I have absolutely no clue. All I know is that even if He didn't, it's for my own good. This I do not doubt. But i also know that if He didn't, there's a lot more pain coming my way. How will i handle these? Will i have the courage to go through all the pain and trials He prepared for me?

It's so scary thinking about it. I do not doubt that He's got something great for me at the end of this journey. But i can't see it now and that's what scares me. All i can see right now is this journey and all i want to do now is to make this journey as comfortable as possible. I know this is silly but i really can't help it but think this way.

I'm sure you guys know what i mean. I bet you guys have been through the same thing haven't you? Haven't you done once done something you know is wrong because it's the easier way out? Well, that's what i feel like doing now. I feel like taking the easy way out.

BUT I KNOW I CAN'T!!!

YYY